So, I’ve not blogged in a long time, sorry about that. Life has been busy, more so than I intended for January. I had some fun bookings and a great work trip away to the Netherlands & Germany. But also some of those annoying niggly life problems you don’t always anticipate (recently revolving around recurring car problems and trips to garages on days off), and some other emotionally/mentally testing ‘stuff’. But hey, such is life when it throws a bit of stress and unexpected situations your way, even though it’s hard at the time, and you want to sulk a bit, I love that it challenges and teaches you, and repeatedly keeps you on your toes in learning patience, understanding, acceptance and strength.

And I’m actually glad we are out of January, I was reminded how my body and mind definitely struggle with the fairy light lacking, post-Christmas void, and unmotivating dingy, cold, dark grey weather. So I feel like I’ve had a bit of a stunted start to the year, with a cloudy mix of things to think about. But I’m finding clarity now and picking up where I left off with some thought-out plans and changes I drafted up at the beginning of the New Year. Someone recently mentioned something that resonated to me, that although it’s great thinking positively, it’s all about ensuring you put it into action. Basic thinking I know, but, so often easy to forget in confusing times.

I’m really looking forward to the weeks and months ahead. Next week I’m going to Dublin for 5 days working with some absolutely super people, so I know that will be really fun and enjoyable. I have another trip to Holland & Germany in March, and some cool workshops and model days scheduled.

I don’t have much planned too far ahead for the year yet, but I’m revelling in that as I’m aiming to simplify my schedule quite a bit. 2012 was exciting and super, but so constant and jam-packed with modelling, that with all organising and admin that comes with it, I hardly had any time for anything else and felt I was often rushed and behind. For 2013 I’m concentrating on making more time for my massage work and my photography, and equally more time for loved ones and wellbeing.
Modelling is something I still love hugely, which I’m glad about as there are phases it can seem really tough-going, but I feel like I want to relish it all the more by being more selective with my time, and balance it better in my life. I hope to make new adventures on travels in Europe and maybe further afar, but we’ll see, I think at the moment I’m at a point where I like having quite a blank diary ahead of me, and having that control without feeling time is hurtling by so fast. I think when life has been so fast-paced it’s quite daunting and uncomfortable to let things slow down like that, but it’s good to trust it will be fine and take time to re-check that, finances aside, you have everything you want and need.

I’m posting this shot, one of many great images taken by Richard Maxim on a productive day working in Cre8-Image Studio in Cambridge. I love the sense of being caught, breathless and slow motion in time, in between the up and down. I’m calling it (and this post) ‘Down the Rabbit Hole’ – which Wikipedia says is – an adventure into the unknown.